LIfe's becoming dreadfully awfully silenced.

I seriously need some kind of counseling or psychiatrist to talk to. I feel as if the world's moving and I'm stuck in the same place in time. I'm going through life like its all a blur, not accomplishing anything, no one person who really understands me emotionally or even someone to empathize me. People tried or attempted but they end up assuming something else. I'm usually good in expressing myself with words but there's this feeling thats inside me that I can't quite put into words and it eats me away. I keep going forth with a non-chalant attitude and a smile but its becoming apparent that time is not going to be on my side. I haven't gotten a job yet, haven't done anything in terms of obtaining my license (with only less than 3 months before the permit expires) and I still haven't proved to anyone just how much I want to be on my own....bills here, sorrow there, I'm here now but the person I'm seeking to be is years into the future. Someone help me please....the darkness is beginning to overshadow the light.